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The Divine really does give us exactly what we need

Hi everyone,

I don't share on here very often, but I am have been laying awake all night and felt compelled to. I have been doing Divine Openings for several years now & attended a 5 day in Austin a while back. I was one of those whose resistance was very high and it definitely took some time to smooth things over. Things had been getting smoother and smoother, easier and easier, and the bumps have been less & less. As I started hearing more guidance and LISTENING to it, magical things started to happen. I ended up getting to start a training program for a new career I am passionate about, and then after years of not dating & not having a clue how to start, a guy that was a wonderful match for me literally knocked on my door & we have been dating 4 months. It has been GREAT...but at the same time, I was spending so much time with him that I was NOT spending enough time with myself. I was getting out of touch with that voice that had become such a close friend, because there simply was not enough space for it to be heard. And I was needing time to myself, but was not willing to ask for it. New love can be so all-consuming sometimes.

For about a month I had been felling pressure building up...things coming to the surface that were ready to be felt. But not having the time alone to be with it, the pressure just kept cooking & building. Started feeling some emotions I hadn't felt in a long time, which in turn caused our relationship to suffer. Over the weekend we went on our first trip together, and the pressure was intense. I felt unable to breathe almost & kept hearing guidance to break up with him. I couldn't believe what I was hearing...break up with him?!? This guy is perfect for me, we have a ton of fun together and we had already had talks of a future together. So I ignored the voice. Surely it's a mistake.

So we get back and what happens...he breaks up with me. And it hurts like hell, and I've cried more tears in the last couple days than I knew I even had inside me. But I see how this is perfect. I needed something to help me feel these feelings that have been been sitting there bottled up. If there's anything in the world to open you up to pain, it's heartbreak. But what is wonderful about it is I am hearing guidance soooooo much. It just keeps soothing me that all is well, that this is perfect, that this needed to happen. That this is an incredibly beautiful gift that happens to be in very ugly wrapping paper.

The Divine was telling me that I needed time alone to allow this shift to happen. And because I did not take action to follow, action was taken for me. Action that allowed me to feel those painful feelings. I do not know what will happen with me and this guy in the future. I am still in love with him and it still hurts but I know I need time to myself to allow things to unfold, that have been wanting to unfold for a very long time.

So yeah, I know this is long...but what it really boils down to is the Divine really DID give me exactly what I needed. Reminding myself of that has turned an experience that others may view as horrible, into something positive. Maybe even a blessing.

Thanks for reading, it felt good to share! :)

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We are always divinely guided

Dear Mindy, I read your words with my mouth dropped open as I have been in the same experience just last week. I had put out to the universe exactly what I wanted in my intimate relationship and let it go. Before I knew it, a man showed up! I was not looking at all! He was (is) beautiful and we shared the most incredible sensations together, conversations, time and very deep awarenesses. However, as the sensations became a drug to me I wanted more and more of them while I was ignoring the red flags that the universe was presenting to me. I was so consumed int he wonderful sensations that I didn't want to listen to the flags. After 4 months, there was a very strong sensation within me that said stop this now! I was so confused because I couldn't understand how or why would I want to stop something that felt so good! Well, it did feel good when we were connected, together or on the phone, but in the distant it did not feel good, it was painful in fact. So, I went deep within and ask my large self what was happening. I did end the relationship but this is what I learned. My small self was enjoying all the sensations while at the same time struggling with my large self who no longer would accept certain behaviors or actions in her life anymore. The struggle was not leaving the relationship, the struggle was leaving my small self behind and opening up to my large self. It has been one week today and although I am still discussing with myself many things, i realize that I have done the right thing and that the divine has guided me into doing so. I feel many doors opening for me and my energy is free! My large self keeps reminding me why I left and I am slowly but surly understanding it all. The pain I felt was the separation from the old Kamy to the new higher vibrating Kamy. I hope this helps you in some way to know that all is well and that you have and will grow from this experience. As you were leaving yourself behind the universe helped you to pick yourself back up and make YOU Mindy the priority in YOUR life! We always come first, although it is easy to loose sight of that when wonderful love sensations present themselves. I could probably write for hours on this subject but will leave you with this. You are ALWAYS divinely guided and if you go deep within yourself you will hear what you have learned from this experience and take it forward to your next relationship. With love and blessings, Kamy

Dearest Annon, Dearest Mindy,

Dearest Annon, Dearest Mindy, & all my other Dearest Divine Family Members, thankyou so! Mindy, now your words are comforting me! Yours too, Annon, at a deep level - can't wait to see you in Cornwall next March... Love Love Love x x x

Thank you Angeline, David, Annon & Jenenne!

I just wanted to thank all of your for your wise words and support. Your advice, along with a big healthy dose of crying has helped a lot.

I have been taking the last few days to really just go within and it has made all the difference in the world. I can hear so much that I'm sure was there all along, but I guess I was too focused on my relationship to notice it. It's telling me all is well, that this needed to happen, and that I'm going to like where it's headed, even though it may be scary right now. Like a few months from now, looking back I'll see how the dots connect and how this experience opened me up to better and brighter things.

Angeline, you will be in my thoughts....All the best to you <3 Be good to you and that adorable little gal of yours.

Love to you all & have a Happy Thanksgiving!
Mindy

It's What We Make It Mean

Hi dear, I did read it all. Thank you so much. I just love it when the Divine let's me know that there really is an exchange going on between me and ME. That's what happens when I don't follow the guidance. I can most often trace it back to the still small voice that whispered so gently in my ear, so swiftly and I dismissed it because I was moving too fast. Every time, I am in awe of the experience just as I am in awe of hearing it and following the guidance and how things unfold.

As a speaker and writer what I have come to realize, only in the last two weeks, is that we have the power to define what our experiences will mean to us. For too long I defined some earlier childhood experience as meaning that I wasn't enough. Now I stand on those experiences as my source of triumph and transformation. Your defining this for you as something positive allows it to be just that and for you to keep your power in the experience. Bravo. Yes, heartbreak does create a shift and when we can say, on some level, I created that... then we don't feel powerless and open ourselves to the perfection that's unfolding. Holding a space of peace, joy, acceptance and gratitude for you. xxoo jenenne

Divine Mother hugs sent to

Divine Mother hugs sent to you, Mindy, and to Angeline also (do I get to be a 5 day sister even if that one wasn't my first?). No, Angeline's right, you don't have to fear that your heart will shut down because of what you're feeling. You can just intend that it doesn't, and know that the Presence will see that it doesn't. Every time I've asked for help through something I've been afraid to feel, what has happened is that I came through, in the end, softer, centered, in my body, doing things from the whole of me instead of from just my head. What Angeline calls the hurricanes of heartbreak can be overwhelming, but that same intensity of feeling--really--is not as powerful as the waves of love which are flowing through you in your Large Self. It's there, just on another level, and you may find yourself suddenly aware of it in a quiet moment. What David says--thank you for that--is true, too: the Presence can be there vividly as a constant and reliable lover. A time like this can be a moment when you find out, or find out one more time, just how real, powerful, and loving it is, whether we call it God, Source, the Presence, whatever. When a person really understands through experience how real that Source of love is, no person can take it away. Relationships come and go or come and stay, but you're never, ever alone.
I'm admiring the heck out of both of you for how you're connecting with your Large Self in the middle of waves of feeling. You've obviously intended it by the way you're writing, and if you think about it, there's an unspoken intention to create a future with relationships that are a quantum leap upward in vibration--you can fill in the details. I'm admiring you as loving women who are changing the world now and for the next generation through what you're radiating.
One thing about energy--we all have ways of opening to flow into higher vibration, so I'll throw in what works for me, and you're welcome to play with Marion's image, or this, or make up your own. It's easier for me to let energy flow through me, than call it back. My image/experience of reality is that just underneath or behind the physical dimension, is an infinite source (french word for a spring, right?) of energy and love pouring through. I can't run out. I just have to remember it, and gently breathe until I feel it flowing through and supporting me.
Much love,
Annon

Have you considered this?

Hi Mindy,
I think that almost everybody on here can relate to and resonate with what you're going through at this time. Perhaps we've all been through similar siuations at some time in our lives. It's fine to experience this -and it is all experience, as Lola says. Now what's made me reply here is somethign that has been occupying my thoughts over the past few days. I'll run it past you and you can see if any of it resonates with you.
In the book, Lola talks about a different conception of God, and shows how you can make your own relationship. As a result I've begun to see the Divine as feminine. That may change in the future but for now it helps and nurtures me. While I've mentioned this to some of the U.K. folks they haven't all agreed with me, but that's fine. After all, it is our own personal relationship with the Divine.
So youcan have the Divine as your best friend, your parent, guide, counsellor and protector. But it occurred to me that the Divine could also be your lover and companion as well. After all, the Divien is you anyway, so why not. We know that the Divine loves and adores us, so why not extend that into an ongoing relationship? Lola's suggestions for 'quality time' include having a date with the Divine, so why not try that out? I get the feeling that when we're in an active relationship with the Divine within (who is us anyway) we'll become fulfilled and complete within ourselves. Now the obvious result of that ius that our vibrations will change, and the folks that we'll attract into our lives will change as well. Your friend was a vibrational match for you AT THAT TIME, but it might not necessarily be a permanent partnership no matter how muc our smaall selves might wish it (yes, I've experienced that in the past). So someone can come into your life for however short a time, and have an effect on you that is profound in the extreme. The duration of the relationship might almost be irrelevant to the result, if you see what I mean.
So your guy gave you a gift of opening you up in various ways to vulnerability, and that reflected your new vibration and openness to the Divine within you. You now stand in a completely different place than before, and maybe now anything is again possible for you!
But consider the possibility that you can develop that real loving connection on your part to the Divine within you, and giving you that complete security within yourself that whatever happenes with whoever comes into your life, you are absolutely fine, because you have you the Divine in your life and nothing (but nothing) can take that away. It's always been there and always will be there. It's only now that we're waking up to that fact.

I hope you understand this and it can give you comfort.
Remember that we're all here for you, as we're all on the same path and all of us are a part of each other. So we're all part of you and we love you.

Lots of love,
David
XXX

To Dearest Mindy, from another '10 5 Day Sister

Dearest Mindy, biggest love, hugs and Mother Divine energy to you and your heart right now, and ongoing too... Just keep on listening to the little voice, and also keep doing what Marion suggests (that's brilliant by the way, thankyou Marion!) about calling your energy back to you. I shall do the same - interestingly I didn't see your original post a few months back when you originally posted it, but I did see it just now - and as synchronicity would have it, I'm in almost exactly the same position as you were when you wrote your original post. I'm finding it very hard to hear the still small voice over the roar of the wild hurricanes of heartbreak, but I know it is there & am taking the time apart to do a clear out & tidy & beautification of my house, & also to junk my most limiting and self-sabotaging beliefs at the same time. My little one and I will do some car boot sales & make some money from our old stuff (she's been very active this afternoon deciding which toys to give away to 'the poor babies'!), and I'll get my centre back & call my energy back too. When your heart breaks, as you say, it really expands. When it heals, it heals bigger and stronger. Love you lots x x x x x Angeline

back again

So I wrote the original post a few months ago. We did end up getting back together after some time apart, but after about 3 weeks or so he ended up breaking my heart again. The logical side of me knows I deserve better, knows this is a stepping stone to someone better who treats me the way I deserve to be treated. But my heart is still really hurting. Being with him helped me open my heart up and I'm afraid the hurt will close it back up. So asking for you all to send some Divine Mother loving my way. I really could use some soothing right now. Thank you <3

dearest 5-Day Sister

Here's a soothing Divine Mother Hug coming your way...

thank you!

Many thanks to both of you :) You are totally right Marion I DO need time for me & I love your idea of calling the energy back. I already feel it so much stronger than a few short days ago. So glad your husband recovered and is doing well.

Am feeling much better than I was when I wrote the original post. The alone time the past few days has been fantastic...exactly what I needed. And I am taking the weekend to visit some friends & family and then when I get back we are going to have an honest chat and try to work things out.

And you are right, he would not have landed on my doorstep if he was not a vibrational match. Match or not, we all need time to ourselves no matter how in love we are, so we do not forget who we are.

Calling my energy back

Just popped in here for a first thing on the morning vibration raiser and find just what I need as ever. Calling my energy back, I had never thought of that before nor consciously done it. I realise that after 2 months of family pressures this is exactly what I need to do. So I will. No - I am doing it , right now - my energy returns to me quickly and joyfully. Thank you. Thank you. I'm beginning to feel the difference already. Bless you both. Jane

Old love can be all consuming too

Hello Lovely Mindy

Remembering our fab 5 days in March 2010. Wow, how quickly the time has gone.

After my husband of 37 years became ill (overnight) in May last year, I became totally absorbed with him and did lose my connection to My Self. Like you I knew I was letting it happen. Now I see that we had 'melded' a bit too much during the following months. By the way he recovered quickly and is well.

Suggest you call your energy back. As often as you feel you need to, just gently call it back. It will obey. You'll feel the difference and will feel stronger in Your Self.

Don't forget he has a Large Self too and if came into your life he is of a vibration that matched yours.

Come home to yourself. You brought him to you (like you said), and wait for whatever is to come to you to unfold.

So much love to you

Marionx