The Divine really does give us exactly what we need
I don't share on here very often, but I am have been laying awake all night and felt compelled to. I have been doing Divine Openings for several years now & attended a 5 day in Austin a while back. I was one of those whose resistance was very high and it definitely took some time to smooth things over. Things had been getting smoother and smoother, easier and easier, and the bumps have been less & less. As I started hearing more guidance and LISTENING to it, magical things started to happen. I ended up getting to start a training program for a new career I am passionate about, and then after years of not dating & not having a clue how to start, a guy that was a wonderful match for me literally knocked on my door & we have been dating 4 months. It has been GREAT...but at the same time, I was spending so much time with him that I was NOT spending enough time with myself. I was getting out of touch with that voice that had become such a close friend, because there simply was not enough space for it to be heard. And I was needing time to myself, but was not willing to ask for it. New love can be so all-consuming sometimes.
For about a month I had been felling pressure building up...things coming to the surface that were ready to be felt. But not having the time alone to be with it, the pressure just kept cooking & building. Started feeling some emotions I hadn't felt in a long time, which in turn caused our relationship to suffer. Over the weekend we went on our first trip together, and the pressure was intense. I felt unable to breathe almost & kept hearing guidance to break up with him. I couldn't believe what I was hearing...break up with him?!? This guy is perfect for me, we have a ton of fun together and we had already had talks of a future together. So I ignored the voice. Surely it's a mistake.
So we get back and what happens...he breaks up with me. And it hurts like hell, and I've cried more tears in the last couple days than I knew I even had inside me. But I see how this is perfect. I needed something to help me feel these feelings that have been been sitting there bottled up. If there's anything in the world to open you up to pain, it's heartbreak. But what is wonderful about it is I am hearing guidance soooooo much. It just keeps soothing me that all is well, that this is perfect, that this needed to happen. That this is an incredibly beautiful gift that happens to be in very ugly wrapping paper.
The Divine was telling me that I needed time alone to allow this shift to happen. And because I did not take action to follow, action was taken for me. Action that allowed me to feel those painful feelings. I do not know what will happen with me and this guy in the future. I am still in love with him and it still hurts but I know I need time to myself to allow things to unfold, that have been wanting to unfold for a very long time.
So yeah, I know this is long...but what it really boils down to is the Divine really DID give me exactly what I needed. Reminding myself of that has turned an experience that others may view as horrible, into something positive. Maybe even a blessing.
Thanks for reading, it felt good to share! :)