Hi there wonderful Divine Openings family. Every since I registered with DO and read the book a couple of months ago and booked my place on the 5 day retreat in Cornwall,I have experienced some wonderful moments in my every day, a real shift of perspective that has been extremely expansive. Until two days ago I had not experienced any illness or discomfort for weeks- I usually catch every cough and cold going from my three year old son and am almost permanently tired.
However a couple of days ago I came down with a terrible cold and no matter how many times I dive in, give my attention to it, I get worse. The retreat is on Friday and I feel like an old pair of pants. My son is now also ill and I know it has something to do with where I am at (grumpy, snappy, irritable). I expected to feel great before such a wonderful event but I just feel rubbish. Is this old stuff coming up or am I just bypassing? I feel awful about leaving him when he is not well.