Help! Am I losing the plot?

Hi there wonderful Divine Openings family. Every since I registered with DO and read the book a couple of months ago and booked my place on the 5 day retreat in Cornwall,I have experienced some wonderful moments in my every day, a real shift of perspective that has been extremely expansive. Until two days ago I had not experienced any illness or discomfort for weeks- I usually catch every cough and cold going from my three year old son and am almost permanently tired. However a couple of days ago I came down with a terrible cold and no matter how many times I dive in, give my attention to it, I get worse. The retreat is on Friday and I feel like an old pair of pants. My son is now also ill and I know it has something to do with where I am at (grumpy, snappy, irritable). I expected to feel great before such a wonderful event but I just feel rubbish. Is this old stuff coming up or am I just bypassing? I feel awful about leaving him when he is not well.

I'll make you an offer you can't refuse...

Hi Sally,
we'll talk about my jazz orchestras when we meet. That'll take the terror off singing, and I can always provide a loud banjo to drown out the dodgy notes! :-D

David.
XX

Snot nice

Hi David, I gave in and went to the doctor, I must be desperate (!). Hopefully by friday I won't be sneezing everywhere. I wondered too if this was linked to the retreat as I haven't felt this unwell for years. There is always the fear that I have't been feeling the feelings and its all gone underground instead, but this feels like a last ditch attempt from my small self to tell me I am not worthy and actually what was I thinking that I could be happy and healthy! It's ironic ; my greatest desire is to sing (I am operatically/classically trained), and yet 1. I cannot perform because of terror and 2. I always have a chesty cough or cold. I long to express myself and I pray that DO and the retreat can blast me open! Here's hoping. I hope you too are feeling better. It will be such a privilege to meet everyone and share some sacred space.

Cough, splutter!

Hi Sally,
welcome to the coughing group! I've had a nasty cold since the weekend and lots of friends/acquiantances have either got the similar thing or know someone who has it!
Interestingly I wondered whether this one (of a type I haven't had in years) was linked to the 5 day energies. Answer: quite probably!
My only concern is whether I'll be hacking and spluttering through the meditations and ruining it for others. Oh well, the Divine will take care of the heavy hacking, as well as lifting. :-)
See you Friday,
Lots of love

David (cough, splutter)
XXX

Thank you Verity and Sal

Bless you both. I felt so uplifted when I saw you had responded with such wonderful advice. I am full of gratitude. I am feeling even more poorly today which is great! I must be moving a mountain! I would love to move things easier though without the trauma of illness and suffering. I am going to hand it over to Grace (about time too). Sal I hope you are feeling better and if not, we've somehow got to drag ourselves there on friday and pray that all this stuff melts away in Lola's high vibration. Verity I am going to ask myself your wonderful questions and see how I get on. Love to you both. x